I cant I cant I cant stop losing I cant !!

Cant help but say this ..... I SUCK . I know its hard to admit but truth's always somethin you wudn't accept very easily. Was just turning the clocks backward to find the exact date i hit the downward spiral. Its been my pal for too long now. Gone are the days wen i was rewarded for my academic excellence. Its now only a far word found in my old school diaries. The semester results have only brought deepened scars, more guilt, more dissatisfaction, more frustration and probably a bigger drive towards a better and most importantly a sincere performance. When more than most of the class has outscored YOU even the 'most cynical' ..... bloody there's more than just some effort needed.
But then I've had my chances i've let them fly as well. The only necessity now is a measured confidence boost that'll only take me the dist i've been dreamin of but doin nothin about. Your underperformance stimulates thoughts questioning the same. Give it some time and u'll soon find answers. Answers to questions u felt were unanswerable or even unthinkable. Answers that'll show u the right path. Answers that'll eventually make ur life less miserable.